Whose that man?

As I have said before, I am a complete nerd. I have never tried to hide it, so why start now? What today proves my nerdiness? The fact that one of my effin fish died and I am really sad over it. It's just a fish. But, I am pregnant and nothing is what it seems.

My emotions run the gamut. I remember this phase when I was caring Turner. Very attached, very lovey. The sun must be in the house of Venus, or what ever bull shit line of astrology you believe. I love my husband today in a he walks on water and can do no wrong sort of way. I love my son the same way as always, completely and totally. But today I am intoxicated with both of them. Either Brad is a whole lot nicer this pregnancy or I am delusional. Either way I'll take it.

From the minute I found out I was pregnant with Turner Brad was a little, shall we say, distant. He would not come with in ten feet of me. This only lasted the entire pregnancy and for about four of five months after. I didn't think that I looked so terribly different. I lost all my weight with in a couple weeks of giving him his son. But the whole transformation from "my old lady" to "mother of my children" threw him for a loop. I, on the other hand, thought Brad was the most handsome thing to walk the earth. Anyone whose been in the second trimester knows what I am talking about.

It's a whole different story this time around. He doesn't seem to notice that I am pregnant and starting to "show" or it doesn't bother him. He made my whole week when he came home from work early yesterday. He scooped up Turner hugged him and played for a minute, then walked into the kitchen and pinched my butt. I was flattered. Still being wanted when you are loosing control of your appearance is heaven. Maybe he just realized that I won't break and I am still me, there's just more of me.

I am enthralled with Turner because he is two. Along with the "terrible" part of being two is the wonderful part of being two. His personality is all his own. He is intelligent and inquisitive. He is so much fun to be with. Another reason my husband is on my good side, he sees all of our sons changes and is just as in love with Turner as I am.

I bet I answered the question "What's that?!" a hundred times today. I loved it. We sing together to the radio in the mornings on the way to the gym. We talk about who he played with and what we see on our ride home. Our weekly visit to the library is an adventure all our own. He is starting to realize that the world, not only he, has rules. He now shares them with everyone. He hushed another toddler in the library today. He yells at Brad to make him buckle up. He's my little bossy boy and I love him.

So my thought was to chronicle this most excellent of days and save it for later. Tomorrow two fish may be dead and the world may be a crappy place. Today it's great and am so happy to be where I never knew to wish to be.