Glutton for punishment

Why do I do it? Why do I stand outside of Tate's door and peek through the crack to watch her cry? I know she's not in pain, scared, or panicked. No, she just cries a bit to wind down to fall asleep. Turner did this too, but not as much.
I pride myself on the fact that my kids are good sleepers. Sleep has always been something I have battled with. I'm not the girl who can just put head to pillow and drift off to la la land. I have never been a good sleeper. I slept in my parents bed til they gave me a sister who would sleep in my bed. I don't sleep when Brad's gone. I lurk downstairs til midnight or one then I go upstairs and stare at the walls. I can go to sleep in cool weather with Brad. Winter is wonderful: Cold sheets and a warm body to snuggle up next to. Summer nights aren't my thing. It's too hot to lay next to my clean smelling man mountain. I roll, toss, and turn without his arm on top of me to hold me still.
I don't want this for my kids. I want each of them to embrace sleep. I want them to be able to fall asleep by themselves and stay asleep. Turner is my golden boy. After a rocky first eight months of life he "cried it out" for a week and has been a gold star sleeper ever since. Turner merely needs a story read to him before nap or bed time, a hug and kiss, then he goes to sleep. If he wakes up to potty, he goes right back to sleep.
Tate is another story. I have been putting her in her own bed for months now. She has always napped in her own bed. She now goes all night with out nursing (not by her choice). But every single time she cries for ten minutes or so. I know this is not a travesty. I know that it's how she settles down. Now, ask me if it bothers me non-the-less? Yes it does. I try to play it off, but I hate the sound of either of my kids crying. I do it for her own good. Wow, did I just channel my mother for a second? I want her to learn how to sleep.
I don't want her to dread going to bed like I do. I wonder if our sleep habits are passed down father to son and mother to daughter? If so, I am so sorry Tate. I hope you learn to drop into bed and be asleep before the sheets settle, just like your Papa. Of course I want only good things for my two babies. So I wish to Turner and Tate sweet dreams, calm, and peaceful rest. I will be awake to watch over you, so rest my lovelies....