I am not nuts, and I have a doctor to back me up on this. I have been having a lot of pain lately. To be more specific pain in my pelvic bone. I kept thinking it was normal or I was thinking it was just me being nuts. The sensation is like my pelvic bone is breaking in two. Well low and behold, I was right. My Doctor confirmed my suspicions that I am literally about to snap in two. He told me I have Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction. Great, at least I am not imagining it.
So what the hell is it? My pubic bone is separating. It'll go back after I have Tate. I just have to put up with it til then. All I have to do is avoid lifting anything, avoid stairs, and try to avoid anything that involves my pelvis. The pamphlets he gave me had nice suggestions like: Have someone take over your household duties til after your delivery. Have your spouse help you dress in the morning. Avoid lifting, especially older children. avoid bending. The authors of the literature apparently smoked a lot of grass to relieve their symptoms. I don't know a single mom who can just up and avoid their household duties. On that same note I can just see Brad helping me into my underwear everyday. Let's be practical. I will ease up on what all I do. I will start limiting my trips up and down the stairs. I already try not to lift Turner more than I have to. But I can't just not pick him up. What is the lesser of the two evils: Bend over and get him dressed or pick him up to put him on the counter to get him dressed?
I can not stand to feel worthless. I hate not being able to do what I want when I want to do it. My white flag is up. I surrender to this pregnancy. I can fight some things and this isn't one of them. I told my OB I've had a kid, a kidney stone, a boob job, a couple tattoos, and a few piercings, those hurt but were tolerable. This is something different all together. With most of them they were over in a few hours or days, they did not last six or seven weeks. I know if I follow my new set of rules I will get some relief but will Brad and Turner survive?
Brad isn't here much so he'll be fine. Turner is at the perfect stage for me to be pregnant around. He can play well without me as long as I am around to watch and talk to him. He is a great kid who minds really well. Besides, he helps so much I wouldn't know what to do with out him. He picks up all the stuff I drop, he gets things from the bottom shelves, and most importantly he makes me smile and know that it is all worth it.
So here I sit with my legs pinned together and my hips parallel as instructed and I feel better. The pain only comes when I move, so I'll just sit still(or try to anyway). I am way more fortunate than most people. I have great friends here who'll help if I ask. I have a wonderful husband who is helpful for the hour he's home a day. And I have two retired parents chomping at the bit to come out and help me "Avoid household duties". I just may have to give in and let them come out a little earlier than expected.
Pregnancy is the great equalizer. No amount of preparation can assure you smooth passage. No matter how healthy and in shape you are something will crap out on you and leave you more appreciative of the ability to walk up and down the stairs with out wincing. It is all just to prepare you for how powerless you'll be once you have your baby. That little person will hold you in the palm of their hand. Your own happiness will forever be dependent on their being happy. You will try to move mountains to make life easier for them. But they will do what they want when they want. Some of them will even marry a man and move to the other side of that mountain, damn kids.
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