Tate is onto my and Turner's game. She figured out that he isn't napping anymore, he's only in his room playing. So Ms Priss decided not to nap either yesterday. She came out of her room when Turner did.
Oh but no! We are not giving up nap for her too. So I marched her back in and did the only thing I knew would make her go to sleep, I laid down with her. I know a lot of parents love laying with their children, but mine are with me 24/7 with no Grandpa's or Grandma's near for a break. Their nap time is my time to recharge and get ready for round two. But desperate times call for desperate measures. So in her bed I crawled and wrapped an arm around her tiny body. She was asleep with in five minutes, but to my surprise, I wasn't ready to get up.
Tate is by far the more difficult of my children to deal with. She's loud, she's bossy, she's demanding, she's...me. Yesterday was great. I needed to hold my three year old and remember what it was like to hold her as a baby. I needed to spend time with her being quiet so I could hear her soft breathing. I lay with her for half an hour and stared at her round checks and long lashes. I smelled the wonderful scent of Johnson's Lavender Shampoo mixed with the smells of outside. For half an hour yesterday I had a baby again.
I won't make a habit of laying down with Tate. I relish my hour and half of quiet everyday. But next time she refuses a nap I won't be so irritated to have to lay down with my sweet lil devil to make her rest. It may just be the re-charge I need too.
Such a sweet thought. Halle's not a baby anymore, either. She's not a little grown-up like Tate...no full conversations or fashion advice yet, but it's coming. I think about her as a baby all the time. About how she would lay her sleepy head on my shoulder and snore as I rocked her...alas, no more. I like her better this way. She's a handful, but she's fun. I miss Tater. I wish yall were closer...I'd lay wiff her if you wouldn't. ;)
ReplyDeleteI couldnt have said it better myself, some times we need those things more than they do....(only sometimes, and at the right time :) ) Maybe the big man upstairs knew today you needed some quiet mommy daughter time......and as I very well know with a 4 yr old daughter myself (much like you described above, and sadly also have no one to blame but myself since she is 100% my DNA! lol)there is not a moment of quiet anyway where near when she is awake......and some times we need those types of recharge! You are such a great mom, they are lucky to have you!
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